Sunday, May 30, 2010

洗牌


李玖哲 洗牌





星期日这天不好过,因为明天又要工作。
在FB乱乱按,结果按到一个已经被我遗忘的文章。
写这篇文章的男生好象去圆了他的梦,参加了《终极天团》。
听说表现挺出色,可惜后来观众缘欠佳而遭淘汰。


曾经,唱歌将我们牵了起来
曾经,我们一起到过无数的演出
后来,我跟其中一员交往了
后来,我得知他一脚踏两船
后来,我跟他分手了
后来,主唱追求我
后来,我辜负了主唱





故事划下了句号。而我们也没有再联络。
回忆虽然很短,但却如此的深刻。



相遇


by Fire
走在十字街头,心中的孤独再次涌回心头,刚结束几场中学的歌唱演出,再次回到了这种百无聊赖的日子。其实这样也好,让自己过上段轻松的日子,不需要在众人前穿着华丽。

我的名字叫做Fire,这是我的艺名,用了些年也成为了我的真名,与我目前的同班同学Steven是一个组合歌手。记得前些日子我们刚完成了几场演出,最后一场是在坤成女中的一场义务演出。

Fire你好。”忽然一个清脆的声音打断了我的思想。

“你是?”我认不出眼前的这位女生。

“你不认得我的,我是你们的粉丝,之前跟你的发型设计师交往的。”

“哦!是你哦!我有听他提起过。”这句话听上去挺虚伪吧?实际上这句话帮我应付了许多的人,不过这一次我说的是真心话,我的发型设计师Ryne,曾经跟我说过他跟我们的一位歌迷在交往的,相信就是眼前的她了。

“这么巧遇见你哦!Steven他们呢?”

“他们没有在,我今天是心情不好才特地出来走走的。”

“你心情不好?为什么呢?”

“没什么,不习惯忽然的巨变吧!呵呵,以后你就会明白了,你跟Ryne怎样了?”

“我们?分手了。”

“厄……对不起。”

“没关系啦!你不介意我跟你一起走吧?”

“也无所谓啦!一起走吧!我今天的身份也只是普通人一个。”

看到她会心的一笑,感觉挺甜密的,让我的心情也好转许多,便以微笑还之,与她一起到附近的购物商场闲逛。

“对了,其实我还不知道你的名字哦!”我很老实地告诉她。

“我?我叫菁玲,菁是草字头下面一个青,玲是王字边的玲。”

“哦!我还以为是小精灵的那个精灵。”我微笑着逗她。

“不是咯!不过Ryne应该会以为我是那个精灵,他从来不用那个中文写我名字的。”

“看来你还是很在意他哦!”

“其实是死心了,一次再一次地受伤害,我不相信男生了。”

“可是你以后总要嫁人啊!呵呵。”

“去当同性恋算了!”

“不是吧?需要那么严重吗?”

“真的对男人没有信心了,看透了。”

“世界上还有好男人的啦!只是很少了,只要你愿意去寻找,会有属于你的好人的。”

“那你呢?你是好人不?”

“我?我自认我不能算是好人,前一段感情伤得太深了,现在的我都不敢用真心。”

“哈哈!那你还说我?你还不是一样!”

“彼此彼此咯!”

其实今天是我的生日,不过我并没有打算跟任何人庆祝,来了一个小“精灵”,也算是上天赐给我的一个小惊喜吧?反正我享受在其中,欢笑声是我最喜欢的声音之一。

“喂!”她拍了我的肩膀一下“想什么想得这么入神啊?”

“没什么,在想一些自己的事情。”

“哦!也真奇怪的。”

“呵呵,我们这种‘创作歌手’就是要常让思想飞翔嘛!”我微笑着打趣。

她一时之间也不明白我话中的意思,迟疑了一下,明白了我的话之后,大笑起来,这种笑很特别,并不如一般人那样粗鲁,反而尽显了她的可爱。

“哇!你有够迟钝的!”我特地逗她。

她不理会我,只是继续地笑,我也露出无奈的表情,顿时无语起来。看着她的笑容,感觉心里多了一份温暖,她真的很特别,总让人觉得温馨。

“时间不早了,我送你回吧!”我看了看表,发现已经是傍晚六点了。

“不用了,我等下坐火车回去。”

“嗯嗯,那好吧!那我先回咯!”

“嗯嗯,再见哦!很高兴可以跟你逛街。”

“哪里,你也让我开心许多,谢谢你。”

“不用客气。”她自信满满地回应我的话,我知道她是配合着我,想逗我。

“哎呀!够自恋咯!”我当然不甘示弱地反击回去了,结果又是一阵大笑。

说也奇怪,一个普通的小女生,就是这么的可爱,你说她样子嘛!也属普通,可是整个的气质远超于许多同年女孩,看来她在家里的教养是挺不错的。

“那我走咯!再见!”我做了最后一次的告别。

“再见。”

转过头去,我往我该去的方向慢慢离开了她,或许我不会再见到她第二次,也或许我们以后会有更多的相遇,也许她只是人生中的一个过客,也许就因为她而改变了我以后的生活。

人与人之间常常会有许多的相遇于分离,分离时,不要遗憾,因为大家都有过开心的回忆。相遇时,记得珍惜,因为人生中能拥有一个好朋友是不容易的。
















Saturday, May 29, 2010

背后的女人





 我不得不承认我是世界上最幸福的人
=)



Sunday, May 16, 2010

Depression


Beneath this fake smile, there's a deep depression lying, which has lasted until now.
How long does i have to hide my feeling, without anyone's acknowledgement?


I hope you had never read my blog, so that i could express my feelings without hiding.
So that I could briefly express everything here.


Saturday, May 15, 2010

Nothing is unrelated with WORK




Lol... This is where i'm currently working at. That funny guy is my executive. Seriously, he's such a photogenic and damn funny. The only word to describe him especially taking photo : OUTSTANDING, as usual eh. Don't believe? Check this out.





See what i mean? Everyone just genuinely loves taking photos with him!


This is how we treat our desks when we got mad on work. Usually you'll know which one is mine, surely the messiest one. But now, can you point out? I don't think so. hehe.



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So this is how my life's going. Keeping on track. Job comes always the first. Undeniably, this job might be the hardest one i'd ever did before. We make hundreds of phone calls a day, we attend more than 20 interviews a day, we recommend more than ten jobs a day, we find clients more than 20 a day, we deal with a lot and a lot and a lot of HUMAN BEINGS. 


Working for this job is really hard as people would be suspicious about what you're doing for them, whether you cheat or not. Sometimes i really do get emotional. After what i did for them, i search job, i modify their resumes nicely, i recommend them to company, i arrange interview for them, and finally they got offered the job. They would suddenly disappear or didn't show up for work without notice. This is when i will get scolded by the company which is also my client. 


At the end, i will be so frustrated after been screwed up. Some people are really nice and understanding but some won't cooperate and definitely fussed all of us up. I have never done sales before, so once i've made a deliberate decision on taking up this job, i told myself, I have to learn something. I'm not leaving without any improvement. 


Today i attended training conducted by the country manager. And it was about changing. If i change the way i treat my job, my attitude towards this job, everything will not be the same, isn't it? I should be more optimistic, learn to enjoy even facing obstacles, be more friendly and extrovert. 


So yes, these are my goals. I hope i can achieve them. One more thing, please, i've been bugging myself to get my hair dyed so that i look fresh. I'm really dull looking with the straight flat hair!



That's all. For this messy entry.
Gonna wake up early in the morning tomorrow for jogging session so that im well-prepared for next week company's futsal league physically.
What is futsal? 
I shall share it here after i experienced it next week =)




Sunday, May 9, 2010

Bla bla bla yea yea yea




Fitted into a new working environment. I try to cope myself with the help of my beloved colleagues. What im doing currently, as a recruitment consultant. I help people to find matching jobs and company to fulfill their needed positions. Most likely, im doing sales. May is not my month, until now i have not hit even one sales. Not good. Goddamn it, im STRESSFUL.