背后的女人

 我不得不承认我是世界上最幸福的人

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Depression

Beneath this fake smile, there's a deep depression lying, which has lasted until now.

How long does i have to hide my feeling, without anyone's acknowledgement?

I hope you had never read my blog, so that i could express my feelings without hiding.

So that I could briefly express everything here.

Nothing is unrelated with WORK

Lol... This is where i'm currently working at. That funny guy is my executive. Seriously, he's such a photogenic and damn funny. The only word to describe him especially taking photo : OUTSTANDING, as usual eh. Don't believe? Check this out.

See what i mean? Everyone just genuinely loves taking photos with him!

This is how we treat our desks when we got mad on work. Usually you'll know which one is mine, surely the messiest one. But now, can you point out? I don't think so. hehe.

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So this is how my life's going. Keeping on track. Job comes always the first. Undeniably, this job might be the hardest one i'd ever did before. We make hundreds of phone calls a day, we attend more than 20 interviews a day, we recommend more than ten jobs a day, we find clients more than 20 a day, we deal with a lot and a lot and a lot of HUMAN BEINGS. 

Working for this job is really hard as people would be suspicious about what you're doing for them, whether you cheat or not. Sometimes i really do get emotional. After what i did for them, i search job, i modify their resumes nicely, i recommend them to company, i arrange interview for them, and finally they got offered the job. They would suddenly disappear or didn't show up for work without notice. This is when i will get scolded by the company which is also my client. 

At the end, i will be so frustrated after been screwed up. Some people are really nice and understanding but some won't cooperate and definitely fussed all of us up. I have never done sales before, so once i've made a deliberate decision on taking up this job, i told myself, I have to learn something. I'm not leaving without any improvement. 

Today i attended training conducted by the country manager. And it was about changing. If i change the way i treat my job, my attitude towards this job, everything will not be the same, isn't it? I should be more optimistic, learn to enjoy even facing obstacles, be more friendly and extrovert. 

So yes, these are my goals. I hope i can achieve them. One more thing, please, i've been bugging myself to get my hair dyed so that i look fresh. I'm really dull looking with the straight flat hair!

That's all. For this messy entry.

Gonna wake up early in the morning tomorrow for jogging session so that im well-prepared for next week company's futsal league physically.

What is futsal? 

I shall share it here after i experienced it next week =)

Bla bla bla yea yea yea

Fitted into a new working environment. I try to cope myself with the help of my beloved colleagues. What im doing currently, as a recruitment consultant. I help people to find matching jobs and company to fulfill their needed positions. Most likely, im doing sales. May is not my month, until now i have not hit even one sales. Not good. Goddamn it, im STRESSFUL.

圆了我们的梦

今天打开FB，一如往常，看看朋友们的近况如何。
后来看到一个我中学时代最爱的马来老师的update。

我不敢相信。是不是真的？

三年了，从高一到高三都硬着头皮参加这个由董总主办的马来文论坛比赛。

而且，三年里头，有两年失败而归，第三年才勉强得个季军回来。

那种感觉，你们不会明的。

尤其第三年该比赛在自己的学校主办。

如果什么奖也拿不到，没有面子的是自己，是辛辛苦苦栽培我们的老师。

2009

Okay  重温完当年的小成就。
点击cikgu的profile来看，原来是真的！！！
我们的学妹不止击败多年来的心腹 - 中华和尊孔得冠军，
还顺利向全国赛迈进。
那曾经是我和诗韵多么无法想象的梦啊。=）




为什么我那么开心？拿奖的又不是我。
的确，以前还来不及击败多年来稳坐冠军宝座的对手，我就毕业了。
一年后，她们以坤成的名义实现了我们一直以来的梦想。
我很骄傲，更以她们为榮。
总算为我们争一口气了，不是吗？
其中一个我看着她长大的学妹 - 思玮，更获得最佳论坛员。
谁会想到她曾经失败加入这个比赛队伍呢？
她，给了我很大的启示。
失败又怎样。
我又不是输不起。

2010

谢谢你们，圆了我们的梦。

够了

够了  我知道我很失败

可以不要一直发生一些事情来提醒我吗