Happy 22nd to myself

The title says it all.
This day went exactly how i wished for - peaceful and grateful.
I do not demand everyone to wish me on facebook wall, nor held a grand celebration for myself.
It doesn't matter, really. As long as the people that I cared for remember my birthday and wished me.
That's good enough. Although not all of them did, whatever, anyway.
As long as I have expressed my love to the loved one, kissed my mum, hugged my bro, teased on my sis and thank my beloved friends for the treats, presents and wishes.
I should be contented enough.
 

However, it was indeed the toughest birthday I have ever had in my life.

Given the fact that my grandma just passed away a week ago.
I don't have the mood to celebrate at all, same goes to my family.
Grandma's incident gave me the shock of my life, and our family is still miserable about the loss.
How long more does it need to recover? I don't know.
As the saying goes like, "Time heals almost everything. Give time, time."
It made me realized that life is so short and so vulnerable.
Your life can be taken at anytime in just a second.

So what if today was the last day i lived, does it matter if he/she didn't wish me happy birthday?
Does it matter if i never receive many gifts?
Does it matter if i have not had my own party ever in my life before?
Does it matter...

It doesn't matter at all.

What matter to me the most is that my family and my loved ones stay beside me healthily.
We cheer each other up, impact each other's lives, and create happy memories in each other's minds.
Happiness is the most powerful tool in the world, much better than any feasible things like wealth.

Thanks to everyone who have impacted my life for the past 22 years.
I am still a happy girl. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

啵一个

 

那个伤到脚还要一拐一拐地搭巴士送我回家的男人

让我亲一下好吗 ♥ 

被宠

我必须说，不管家人朋友亲戚，我一直都是被宠的那个。

十多岁的时候觉得被别人宠是理所当然的。

直到我离开家到邻国深造，才发现不是每个人都有义务对你那么好。

所以，我更加庆幸在爱情的世界里有他的溺爱。

我真是个幸福的人儿啊。

泄气

很久没有大哭一场。

第一次感觉自己真的很想要一样东西，因为得不到而难过。

每次不开心的时候我总会疯狂地做事情。

这几天，疯狂地念书，效率比预期好上几百倍。

当然不是因为我特别努力，而是希望借此将不开心埋藏。

就好像有压力的时候，总是可以疯狂地跑步，跑上十几圈。

但是之后，跑上五圈都有问题了。

 

宣泄的力量真的很可怕。

其实对于未来，我已经有些计划。

或许跟我念的科系有关，又或许一点关系都没有。

至少，我渐渐地知道自己更想要什么。

简单又快乐。真好。

为什么有种越老越慢的感觉。

从开始快、快、快的生活节奏，到现在的慢慢来。

我觉得我在一步一步地了解生活的意义。

对于未来，我没有太多的抱负。

我不需要跟随他人的步伐，急着找工。

我跟着自己的节奏就好。

 

去过阿妹、卫兰的演唱会，接下来如果再去Jason Mraz的话就今生无悔了。

然后再跟他一起去旅行，跟姐妹在沙滩上奔跑。

偶尔假日时去做做平时没有做的事，如看书、野餐。

一切跟着自己的心走。

我已经可以想象到我毕业以后的生活。

简单又快乐。真好。

生病。猴子。

一个礼拜六。
发烧、喉咙发炎、经痛，已经够折磨我了。
等待我的又是一堆堆的assignment和project。
当所有事情都无能为力时，这一刻的我，真的不希望自己继续生病。


我正坐在电脑前念书时，突然转向我右边发现一只猴子盯着我看。
它居然爬到我房间里，而且还跟我离那么近！
我无法控制地尖叫一声，然后赶紧跑到房间外。
我来不及把电话拿出来，所以跟邻居借电话拨给campus security。
最后他们来到时候虽然猴子已经走了，但我还是一直处于不安和害怕的状态。
我没有办法忘记它看着我的眼神，真的非常恐怖。
那一刻的我，什么都不想，只希望有个人可以保护我。


一封简讯，你马上赶过来。
知道我生病，你买了一碗鱼片米粉就到我的宿舍来陪我。
还有清热的凉茶和明天的早餐。
怎么有人可以像你那么体贴细心？

晚餐后，你站在窗前细考如何防止猴子再进来。

那一刻，我真的觉得我深受保护。

我无法不告诉自己，这样的男人，我能够不珍惜吗？