哭了

没什么，只是压力一下子涌来，承受不了。


一早上会计课，老师叫我们回家做的功课，我动也没动。邻座同学-韵做完了，愧疚感油然而生。为了弥补，我很努力的去听课，什么branch adjustment account，完全不会！老师还说：“这很简单，你们可以自己做hor。”同学纷纷埋头做练习，只剩我的望着白板。发现：我跟不上！



眼泪滴在练习纸上，突然有种想法：我不想念高三了！韵听到我隐约发出的声音，说：“你也跟我一样，鼻子敏感啊？”“哦。”头低了下来。我可以不要读了吗？



下课时间出席《拾穗》校讯社会议，讨论新生营的流程。突然间，老师很严肃地说：“这事我希望未来校讯主编可以多关注。上期的《相对论》（我是主编之一）出版后，里头有篇关于“邪教”的报导，提及的一派“法轮功”，前阵子向我们发出投诉。”

“吓？”

“老师希望能把这事当作教训，而没有谁是谁非.....”

对不起，我身为主编之一，竟然没有去留意这么大的一个错误。

回到班上，在汶的怀抱落下第二滴泪水。



讨厌这样的自己，那么懦弱，那么没有抗压性！

韵，我不是把一切责任扛起。我没有你想的那么伟大。只是很难接受这种事情会发生在我的身上。

只是哭了，没啥大不了。

后来我上网搜关于“法轮功”的资料，才发现法轮功在中国大陆和其他国家和地区的宣传方式和所授内容也有很多差别。通过“百度”搜寻器几乎全都将之归类成“邪教”。大家各执一词，或许有它好的一面，也有其坏的一面



关于“法轮功”的一些叙述：

• 中华人民共和国公民享有《中华人民共和国宪法》赋予的一切权利，包括生存权、健康权、宗教信仰自由权等等。但李洪志为了组织和利用“法轮功”邪教组织，达到其不可告人的政治目的，以欺骗的手段吸引一些人练“法轮功”并对他们实行精神控制，严重侵害了法律赋予公民的正当权益。

《人民日报》 (2000年06月13日第三版)

• 中共敌视法轮功的原因是：
  在旧中国有一个“一贯道”，当时在清末出现的时候，它就讲五教同堂。本身就是邪教，清代一出现就杀它，大清皇帝杀它。民国初期，国民党也杀它，成批成批的枪毙。共产党一解放的时候，也成批成批的杀。为什么出现这种情况呢？实际上常人社会上出现的一切事情都不是偶然的。历史的发展只不过是按照天象变化在走。所以，常人社会无论出现什么举动那都不是谁脑袋一热就做的来的。也就是，不是常人在杀它，而是天意，上边要杀它，不允许它存在。

出自：（《转法轮（卷二）》〈万法归宗〉）

• 据中国大陆媒体报道：一些修练出偏案例、过多的心理暗示及催眠操作，甚至造成部分人士自杀、杀人，因此有观点认为法轮功是伪气功。目前法轮功功法的合理部分和被认为不符合正常理念的部分仍然缺乏有效的论证。

• 《人民日报》发表特约评论员文章《“法轮功”就是邪教》，开始公开认定法轮功为「邪教」。但法轮功方面对此表示否认，他们说练习过法轮功的人都知道自杀是不對的，有病不求医问药的人都沒有被強制要求醫吃藥的，“真正的大法弟子”知道吃藥和病的關係。随后他们据此重新提出法轮功修练者的死亡率，声称练习法轮功者死亡率远低于国家的平均死亡率。

无论如何，在这里向各位“法轮学员”及《相对论》读者致歉，未经仔细观察就妄下定夺，本人对此深感愧疚不已。

The very best of Senior 3 Commerce A

Celebrating yun's bday. Im holding the cake. I love this picha a lot, especially the background designed by sek li.

Dek dek so pretty ~

During cny, took picha with our vry beloved form teacher who had taught us for 6 years.

The volleyball competition between classes. Look at them so into and they'd really tried their best for our class. Love you babes!

Chicken chicken so cute. LOL

We've won!!! too happy til marry-go-round. Love it =)

Basketball. There are this 3 dudes who are the representatives of our school basketball team. Therefore we got the champion.

Gambateh!!!

Volleyball in final round. Even was raining the game still on and the floor really slippery, our class buddies still paid attention. This dude is shorter than me but she's damn good in volleyball, badminton + basketball as well. And score excellent result in studies. We named her as 'Xiao Bai', sin chew's doggie. xD

The cheerleaders under umbrellas. haha. Dunno why i close my mouth with both hands, guess what happened at that time huh ?

Kai en, chicken, wei ling, kah mun, hui san, fun fun & me

The latest activity - 广东义山行 (Guang dong jogathon). Holding hands, we are walking together instead of RUN haha. I know i know, i look like pig! Who cares? I love this picha the most overall!

Senior 3 CommerceA, two classes joined together. I love being here and i love all the friends. How i wish we can have 2 or 3 more years in the same class. Unfortunately, this year end, after the exam, we are SPLITTING with each other soon. :( This is a fate that we should appreciate. I love everyone of YOU!

I need someone....

I need someone in my life.

Who i can depend on when dealing with troublesome situation.
Who i can tell my daily moodies.
Who i can share on a vry little thing in my life.
Who i can laugh on the humorous that someone had.
Who i can lie on the shoulders when life isnt easy.
Who i can sing to everyday and never feel bored with it.
Who i can sing with and always the 1st in list to hang out with.
Who i can have a sweet chit-chat with maybe in starbucks or mamak store.
Who already get a car & driving license so that can drive me to anywhere else.

Most importantly, love to sing like me.
Or willing to accompany me to the jin show singing competition ^*)

爱。望尘莫及 之

男孩篇


她，成为男孩的焦点很久了。
她，总是出没在校园大大小小的活动，气质非凡的她常常让男孩忍不住多看几眼。


终于，男孩有机会跟他同班了。


这时候男孩身边已有个对他很好的女朋友。
男孩知道自己不应该对其他女生有任何遐想。
男孩晓得她常常望着自己，男孩有时也会忍不住望她几眼。


男孩知道女孩对他有意思。


离开身边的女朋友，去追求一个埋藏在心里已久的她？
不可能的。


女朋友为他付出太多太多。
为了跟男孩同班，放牛班的女朋友比别人付出多百倍的努力，
让自己更有资格跟第一班的男孩在一起。


“对不起，我惟有对你残忍些，才能让你彻底死心。”
男孩在心里对女孩说。

一段刻苦却没有缘分的爱情。

让人回味，也让闻者心酸。

爱。望尘莫及 之

女孩篇


一大早来到学校看到他睡觉的样子，女孩不禁偷笑了起来。虽然他头发乱了，女孩就是喜欢这样简单的他，没有任何包装。


女孩虽然和他的座位相隔很远，女孩却习惯性在老师进班前偷偷瞄了他一下。往往这时候，他会戴起眼镜和努力睁开那睡眼惺松的眼睛。女孩总会在望他的那一刻脸红心跳。


上课时，女孩偶尔望望他是否跟自己一样在发着呆呢？
有时的他咪咪双眼望着老师，有时直接倒在桌上，有时候......
在跟旁边的女朋友谈情说爱，时而让女朋友拥在怀里，时而在下课时间你一口我一口的。


女孩望着，也只能望着。
即使喜欢的心情，不能在大家面前流露一丝。
那只会引来朋友们的冷水，朋友们也势必说些难听的话来让她死心。
女孩晓得朋友是为了她好，只是女孩还不能接受跟他是“不可能”的事实。
“让我继续在这梦里沉睡也好，即使无法得到他的人...”

听一个朋友的亲身经历而有感而发。

说不定下次写“男孩篇”吧。

Should I? Should not?

Should i? Or should not?

"尽show歌艺歌唱比赛"

"Just show" singing competition

"I purposely took the application form for you, must take part kay?"

"If you really want to take part, i'll help you to apply..."

"Hey i know you want this all the time, so why dont grab this opportunity?"

For more info... check from here.

http://www.inhouse.edu.my/jinshow.pdf

By the way, who wanna accompany me to the audition? =)

to whom it may concern.

This post is specially for you .

Thanks for making the family upside-down.

Thanks for creating non-ending problems.

Thanks for letting me to realise how much i hate when mummy cries.

And i'm watching her.Cries.

My heart. Cries. as well.

I don care what you did. As long as you love me.

From all those msgs u sent, i know you do.

What others said, i don care.

Really.

Coz your my sister.

But now,

you made the one that i love so much having depress.

How should i react ?

You are grown up, i know whatever i say wont catch any attention of yours.

I have to say,

It is cruel to make your family worried and sad for you, especially for an old woman.

Those dramas happened between u and her i have no idea.

I dont know what kinda world at outside,

but let me tell you,

a person who is aimless in life is worse than anything.

That's true.

If you need someone to talk with, i'm here.

Best friend

"Gosh, i purposely bring my homework down just to talk to her. Then she said wanna go to sleep

=.="

"She tired ma... You cant blame her also, maybe today many work to do le.. I accompany u la, poor thing =)"

"You don understand, the feeling of emptiness... Everyday after back from school face 4 walls of my house and got no one to talk to... Maybe i dont even know how to talk edy..."

"Me also lo, but at night got talk to my mum la.. Morning afternoon i also alone, how i dunno what you feel ? All these years i been like that.."

"Haih.. I really don understand.. Before that she became housewife i can tell you that's the most happiest part in my life... Money really so important mer ?"

"Yup money is important.. If not how to let you and your sis study, and also your bro le.. and for your daily use, buying food clothes and so many more.. Soon you out on your own you will understand the importance of money.. What she doing is for the family ma...."

Thx my friend ^*)

Forum Competition 2009

第十八届全国华文独中国语论坛C区赛

I guess lotsa of you kinda blur bout what the hell is this comp bout.

It is like a discussion but everything need to be presented in bm with bahasa baku (means the actual pronounciation).

And this time 10 schools were competing for the prizes.

Seems easy rite ?

The tough part is as a chinese needs to speak as naturally like a malay people.

At the end ought to answer ques from judges.

Representatives from Kuen Cheng High School

Ling hui, shi yun, me & baby yen

I look bad !
Not having enought sleep plus my fringe being pinned up in a vry messy way :(

Confucius. The first runner-up place they've won.
The pengerusi (2nd one from left) is talented.

2 years he's been won for the best pengerusi price.

If we closed our eyes & listen to his voice, he speaks like a malay, no difference.

I'm exhausted !
Baby yen so cute haha.

The champion, chung hwa kl.

They do deserved it.

We got the 2nd runner-up place !

Not the best but i've already satisfied.

Honestly, other schools have one month to memorize scripts and prepare

while we have only 5 days time to prepare coz before that having exam.

At first i thought we woudnt won anything.

That's why my brain was kinda stucked when the mc announced that we've won.

shi yun always said to gain experience is more important than winning.

Last time i nvr believe in this.

But now i've finally understand

Its really about u take back how much u gave.

The winners and VIPs.

Can u find where am i ?

Well, just look at the height.

laugh-out-loud

Kc headmistress, teachers with us.

Headmistress:"You guys are doing really well, especially u had only 5 days. if we were given longer time sure can do better..."

Juniors, i believe next year u guys can do much better =)

How to spend the 80 dollars ?

Hmm...

to: my beloved partners Guys, do u have any idea how many classes we've skipped just to practise ? How many times we've repeating the same thing everyday ? How tired we were when we need to practise at nite ? i thank to all of you. Though at first i really lack of confidence. Thanks to all of you for giving me a chance and to overcome this bad feeling.


shiyun: thanks for leading the whole group for me. If i were the leader, i couldnt imagine what it would be like. thanks to train ling hui. thanks for ur mopiko. i really dunno what to say. as long as u know how much i love u !

shuet yen,pui yee, ling hui: the first time we worked together. really appreciate everything u've done. We are the best, now and always. Rest more =)

Ching ming

Guess what? Its been alomst 6 years i didnt back to my dad's hometown.

Before that due to some home problems, but we still went for ching ming.

This time i saw all my cousins and they'd all grown up !

Even when they greeted my mum & dad,

we have to make sure who are they.

My younger brother is so many times taller than me & he's still growing.

Those aunties thought he was my elder bro.

Somemore got one said, "take some drinks for your gor gor"

I was like DUH >.<

I'm older than him kay ? haihz blame to my height.

My grandpa graveyard is somewhere deep inside the jungle.

We saw some cows too, ugly cows. Malaysia what.

It was raining when we started to burn those "moneys".

My mum warned me to stay inside the car coz i need to keep my health good for the coming forum comp.

The one under umbrella is my bro. He's like a man now.

Can replace my dad and take care of the ladies :)

BACK!

After one week stayed in school hostel for the purpose of preparation for forum competition,

finally i've back to my very lovely sweet home !

Miss you guys alot !!

Especially to my babie. Thx for taking care of my blog for sometimes when i were not at home.

Anyway, i've lotsa posts that wanted to share with u guys.

Stay tune =)

Happie birthday to shi yun ;)

Its my very best fren's bday on 1st of april.

I know what u'll be saying, APRIL FOOL DAY.

And yea, she's a typical queen of cold jokes.

Okay this is a continuition of the post of 'the best outing of year'.

Let the pictures do the talking (as most bloggers said)

Waiting for siew ting, showing me & my babe's pledged rings.

Long time nvr sees him =((((

Here we were at pavillion red box plus.

Bday gurl & fay yew.

Yi ying did the same thing with fay yew.

Gosh so gay.. They were trying to do like the mv couples.

You can vomit anytime if you want haha.

May may, yun , mun & me.

Me and mun mun.

Guess that's all.

By the way, that day finally i've bought fang jiong bin's cd.

Tadaaaa....

Support local poroduction !!

He's really goood. Deeply addicted.

to: yun

Hey, i hope you really had a good time with us. Its kinda rushed and messy though. Just wanna let you know me & mun truly hope to see the sweet smile on your face especially during this special day.
WE LOVE YOU

独有的情信

身在远方的你，离我一共有多少公里？
我没有去思考，因为距离不会阻碍我想你
而你的气味，我依然嗅着
空气中的四处... 都停留着我喜欢的你
看不见，但是感觉不会有理由地消失
因为没有理由让我不想你

夜空下的灯光闪烁着... 闪烁着一种无法释怀的气味
紫黑色的夜里，我吸进的空气却没有颜色般清爽
一片空白一样，不用考虑与多想的节奏中
寻觅着一个熟悉不过的身影
眼睛没有闭上，因为我不需要想象
空间不需要辽阔，我要的... 只不过是一种安全

月亮的光似一块大网，罩着世间上正在思索的人
街道的脚踏声摇晃了我的高低起跌
无神的眼睛轻轻扫过寥寥无几的清静
我却失去了之前所拥有的热闹
或许说...
你的心跳，静静地... 带过一片寂寥，穿过一霎那间的动摇
发现了我为你安顿的清静中...

夹着一封独有的情信

The best outting of the year

Hold a party to celebrate my beloved - yun's 18th bday today.

We had it at pavillion red box plus. the room is not satisfying, the so-called big room is actually cant fit all of us which totalled up 11 persons. and i hate their service which is not friendly as other plus quite expensive compared with those usually go to.

Well, thats just their problems and wont affect our mood having crazily after stressful exam and also to entertain our bday gurl =)

Actually me and kah mun were the planners and i think i'd not done in perfect. haih forgive me la i was tooooo nervous especially she's my jie mui.

Well, i'll post-up everything happened later after i got those pics from every camera kaki.

By the way i was thrilled to bit today. Finally n finally,

I've bought 'fang jiong bin' cd !!!

(scroll down the page n look for a chinese post n u'll find out how great he is)

Effin happy man :)))))))))))))))))))

'pinky mood'- me