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Guess it's time to update bits of my life here.

The most impactful event will definitely be the passing of my grandma.
Every now and then, when I was in the train, in the room, in the office, and whenever I thought of her, I will still teared a bit.
Not only that I miss her, I hate myself for not being with her when she's sick.
The last time I saw her is when I was about to go back to Singapore, I was holding her hands and hesitated whether I should give her hug.
In the end, I thought I should give her a hug the next time I saw her.
And then, there was no next time.


The impact is permanent.
Until now, I still couldn't forgive myself for being such an ignorant grand daughter.
My grandma had always asked my mum about the three of us, concerned about how I was doing in Singapore.
But, I had never ever asked her once whether was she unwell, or a simplest how are you.
Regardless of the communications barrier, my grandma would try her best to communicate with us.
And she would try her best to understand what we were talking about.
Our communication was very minimal and limited, only revolved around food work and stuff.
I never think that I'm a very good grand daughter, but I didn't realize how ignorant I was towards my grandparents until she's gone.
There will not be chance anymore. What's left is only regrets.